Busy Little Bee

I've been quite busy lately. Work has had me quite busy and add in the animal care and housework, on top of getting my holiday presents started, I've been quite busy. I'm excited though. I'm getting stuff done and have been knitting a lot more than in years past.

With all the business comes stress, and with stress comes a little bit of a melt-down. I am currently medicated and the first time in, well forever, the combination works. That doesn't mean I have bad days, just days that aren't as extreme as they were prior to medication. I cope a lot better and I tend to get through things easier. The stress over the last few days has been overwhelming though. I am going up on my anti-anxiety medication and I am getting medication to try to help me sleep better.

I'm hopeful of things to come and hopeful that this will continue to be more and more manageable. Right now the fight in my head is one of therapy vs. no therapy. With bipolar disorder it is a given that I will always need medications, and therapy will help. I have been in therapy and know what it is to do, but a part of me thinks this is a time I need someone that doesn't know me to give me that little push. I'm seriously considering it's time again to lie on that proverbial couch.

Off to be social, which will be discussed later as it takes a lot to get me out and around more than 4 people at a time, and knit with friends. Well, I will knit and chat as it is comfortable to me.

This Week's FO's

This weekend was productive. I finished the kitty kicker and made a little octopus toy for the kitties. Both were fulled with stuffing rolled in catnip, so they were a pretty big hit! My goal is to keep making cat toys out of my own patterns and eventually have an Etsy store for them and then do some art fairs/pet fairs with them.

Cables!

I decided to branch out and do a project with cables. I was always scared to as I knit while watching a show or socializing, but this is a fantastic pattern from 101 Designer One-Skein Wonders.

The edges are curling a bit so it looks uneven. Instead of sewing it, I'm going to crochet the sides together and then stuff it with catnip and fluff.

So far, I'm over 1/2 way done. You can see where the pattern breaks to fold over.

Baby Blankie

I finished the blanket for a coworker's sister's baby. Follow that? She and her sister loved it. It was small, but little Xavier was pretty tiny - just over 5lbs.

Now, I'm working on a kitty kick toy with cables!
Well, in between cleaning that is.

Bunny Nugget FO

I found the pattern on Ravelry for Bunny Nuggets and had to make one for my friend we call Bunny. She loved it. I can't wait to make more!

Changes

There are huge changes going on currently in my life. I am learning quite a lot about myself in this process. I am becoming a different person and the change is more apparent daily.

I am still knitting and I'm hoping to do that more. I am still wanting to work with ferret rescue, just perhaps not to the capacity that I was. I want to keep socializing with my friends and building friendships.

But I'm doing all this alone now. I have my roommate to help with things. I'm having to rely on myself and not anyone else. I'm having to stand on my own two feet more than ever. I'm having to be strong and learn to do things that I haven't for a long time or haven't ever done. I am on my own.

I have a lot of work to do now on the house, for my pets and for myself. I hope that this will one day be worth it because right now, it can get hard to breathe and it is incredibly lonely. I have confidence that I will get through this and I will be a stronger person because of it.

Ruby-gills

Ruby is all better. I couldn't be more proud of her progress. She actively wants to be out in the rest of the house. She's found her own special spots everywhere. She is trying to play with the other cats and is learning to ignore the dogs.

I still try to make sure she has a little more attention than the other cats because she is so sensitive and needy. She as partially adopted me as her "mommy" and is distant if I don't at least read for 1/2 hour with her squishing my belly.

So glad she's happy here.